Meeting Micah

Dear Micah,

I’m leaving tomorrow morning at dawn to fly to LA to (finally) meet you. You’re one month and seven days old. I’m … eight hundred sixty-eight months and three days old. In case we don’t find much that we have in common, we surely will find a few strong links to each other. One will be your father. Yes, that gentle, sweet, sure-footed, sure-handed, capable set of hands who protects, feeds, cuddles you, lets you curl up and sleep as long as you like on his shoulder while cradling your heat-emitting fetal form with his manly, steady hand. Your father is my son. You are his son. Yes … stepping stones of sons.

If you wonder why my wardrobe is so limited during my visit with you, it’s because my suitcase is filled with gifts; all for you. From your great aunt Nancy, your friends Kristina, Dan and Ivaylo in Paris, me, and others. (see  photo below) There’s no space left for clothes.

I hope you like what’s been chosen. One of my gifts is a baseball – a real, major league hard ball. (see second photo)

The next morning, very early: The night passed. I hardly slept, being wide awake to the amazement of you, Micah. Yes you. I showered at 5, left at 6. After I’d locked my front door and elevator’d twelve floors down with my gift-laden luggage, I saw it was still nighttime. Snow had fallen, was falling. There were no cabs so I walked in the untrammeled, fresh snowfall. At 8th avenue, a cab silently stood, invited me into its leathery warmth.

Those boarding the Boeing 777-300  had on watch caps, scarfs, winter coats but … somehow – after landing in Los Angeles (six hours later plus two hours of waiting, getting de-iced, etc) – these same folks de-planed in shorts, tank tops, their naked arms revealing dramatic tattoos. How this happened is a mystery to me, as much of a mystery as how such a massive, metalic-plastic vehicle is able to fly up and through the sky. I never get used to it, especially at the instant when tires are no longer touching tarmac.

In the not to distant future I imagine you’ll see what I mean. We’ll see if you agree. Personally: I removed my wool hat while flying over Pittsburgh, my cashmere scarf over Ohio, the wool turtleneck sweater over New Mexico, was left with a seasonally appropriate light jacket and shirt on touchdown.

Two days later: The photos say it all. (see photos)

Post Script: Your mommy and daddy took you to your second appointment with your pediatrician in Santa Monica this afternoon. You’ve gained almost two pounds in two weeks; grown an inch. The doctor’s final evaluation:



In the Thriving Season


Now as she catches fistfuls of sun

riding down dust and air to her crib,

my first child in her first spring

stretches bare hands back to your darkness

and heals your silence, the vast hurt

of your deaf ear and mute tongue

with doves hatched in her young throat.

Now ghost-begotten infancies

are the marrow of trees and pools

and blue uprisings in the woods

spread revolution to the mind,

I can believe birth is fathered

by death, believe that she was quick

when you forgave pain and terror

and shook the fever from your blood.


Now is the thriving season of love

When the bud relents into flower,

your love turned absence has turned once more,

and if my comforts fall soft as rain

on her flutters, it is because

love grows by what it remembers of love.

  • <> Lisel Mueller <> 


  1. Vickie

    Sometimes the only response is a tear…or two. Joy encapsulated in small silver drops.


  2. Leslie

    When a child is born, so are grandmothers.
    Judith Levy


  3. Hanne

    Oh Alison, A love letter Micah will cherish. A newly hatched grandmother’s love song. You, Thor, Tahlia, Micah, pearls on the family necklace.


  4. Harriet Bridgeman

    Dear Alison, here I am, a new friend of yours and an old friend of Rick’s. So many congratulations on Micah, your love grandchild. What joy he will bring you as your books have bought me for which so many thanks.
    A happy New Year to you and your son and your grandson and all your close circle,


    • Alison Leslie Gold

      Any friend of Rick’s is a friend of mine. Welcome to our diamond-shaped world, Harriet.


  5. Mignon McCarthy

    No one deserves such a blessing more than you, Alison. Love, Mignon


  6. Darin

    You have been so many things to so many people, Alison (To me, as well!) . And now, a new addition: Grandma. Or, that wise older woman who adds more cuddles, shows more concern, prays more hopes, and dreams more dreams for a new little creature on earth. Love from afar……


  7. Terrill Maguire

    Oh Alison, how divine!! What a blissful time…


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